Taking Chances

I have been SUPER skeptical about sharing my blog on my personal social media. These are really personal stories that I’m writing about and I was so scared people who know me would judge me or treat me differently. I started this blog to share my story with others who suffer like I do. To share that we aren’t alone and the more we share the more people can relate and realize there isn’t shame in sharing our stories. They made us who we are, the good, the bad and the ugly.

But. I decided that I am who I am because of what I’ve been through. And if someone doesn’t like something I’ve done or said they aren’t worth knowing. Because at the end of the day, they weren’t real friends. So I posted my blog on my Instagram to start. It made my stomach hurt to post it but I wanted to take the leap. The more I put it off the more scared I get. I’m not ready for facebook to read all about some of the darkest times. Yet. I’ll get there.

I’m not a shy person. I just feel like the more people know, the more they misinterpret what happened and it just makes me mad. People take too much at face value and it’s not fair. I know that with me, I don’t want to just instantly believe someone is bad or selfish or hateful. I want to believe that people care and honestly want to understand. Ask questions. If you aren’t understanding what the answer is, ask MORE questions. Boom. Easy right?

I guess the point of this post is that if you don’t like me after reading this, that’s fine. No hard feelings. I’m working really hard to like me and I just ask that instead of being judgy, just leave me. I won’t bother you or make you be my friend. People love to just lurk and be nosey. Just don’t be a dick. I’ve changed and I’m not putting up with it anymore. Take that highschool bullies.

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I am sharing my story of why and how I developed BPD and what I am doing to rebuild myself.

2 thoughts on “Taking Chances

  1. It is like coming out of the closet to post to family and friends about your mental health struggles. I understand and feel your fear. Trust that as you ease more and more into it, it gets easier. I have found that it has brought me closer to some people and others did vanish. But I feel like it was the better people that stayed in my life. Stay brave girl. You are not alone in your struggle. ❤️

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