Damn it

This has been a really hard week. Lots of different emotions that just kept changing and it was exhausting. I was just in my DBT group and had to leave because I started having a panic attack. I couldn’t even talk. I started calming down and I think my brain is just done with all of the shit. Once I logged off I started crying. Not oh boo hoo crying. Crying so hard I almost threw up. My chest is so fucking tight. Like how the hell is it ok that when the thoughts finally slowed down and I could breath then go 0-60 and I can’t focus on a thing people are saying. When does it get easier? Because this fucking sucks man. And here comes another breakdown. I’m safe so if anyone is reading this don’t worry I’m just gonna go wash my face with cold water. Gotta go.


I am sharing my story of why and how I developed BPD and what I am doing to rebuild myself.

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